Sunday, November 28, 2004

ReVaMp Of mY bLoG, gOoD-LoOkiN gUys aVaiLaBle, 7 dAys tO MeLbOuRne...

Been a good girl stayin at home for the past 3 days and apart from going out window shopping with my mum, the rest of the time was keeping my room "company". Lucky my laptop was done and I could collect it back, else I would have died of borden. Well, decided to give my blog a new design. Hate the scroll bars but can't help it cause the wallpaper size was fixed and scrolling too much down the browser would attain repeated tiled images of the background. Well, forget what I said if ya can't understand, so anyway, welcome comments if ya have any...

As I have met up with my ex-colleages last week, here's a shot taken with them. Mind you single girls out there, 3 of them are swingin bachelors, so if anyone's interested in knowing them, just drop me a message and I promise to keep mum about it.

Hyahz... Still waiting and waiting for my "conclusion". But decided that I would let my ladyboss know I'll start work in 13 Dec. Well, sat my ex-airport officer's car coz he fetched my sis-in-law and me to the airport last thurs. Hmmn, nice Light silvery blue Mitsubishi Lancer Sport Model with nice body kit, sport rims, CD/DVD player etc... Still one of my fav cars, short of MOMO stering and gear plus racing seats would make it perfect -> for me haha... In my dreams prob., in few years to come maybe? Anyway, flying back to Melbourne in a week's time to meet up with Tigger for our Adelaide trip. Well, hopefully by that day, things would have come to a certain aspect so if there's anything I need to run away from or to forget, I could use the trip to relax and get my mind away from it...

Saturday, November 27, 2004

jUsT tRyiN tO hAnG oN oUt tHeRe...

It's bloody 4am plus now and I still can't sleep coz there are so many things on my mind... Thought of re-designin my whole blog but I'm just too lazy to even think about startin. Went through my emails, some blogs and stuff and some things just make me even more depressed... till I wish you were here to lend a shoulder to cry on.. Why would I wanna cry I don't know? My life is so fxxked up now that sometimes I just wished there was some kind of drink to wash down everytin from my mind...

A promise must be kept
A problem must be solved
Endurance in this time is painful
Everything now is still doubtful
What you don't know won't hurt you
Knowing too much could kill you

I don't think I'll ever understand what love actually is but I do know it could be a lovely thing or a painful one. It could grow or fade in time and the duration doesn't matter sometimes cause what's meant to be is meant to be, and what's not meant to be, will not be... A 5 1/2 year relationship just went down the drain in one day and I'm so numbed by it now... I've lost all sense of it. People come, people go, some you forget, some leave a deep impression on you. I reckon I need to sleep before I really go nuts... I shall try...

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

a FiNaL tRy, cHanGe oF eVents, tHinGs hApPeN FoR a ReAsoN...

Series of events happened during the last few days that I guess by the time I finished everything I would have left some things out. To make it brief, I met someone last thurs and was glad to see how successful he is now -> out of the usual 5Cs' that most girls want, I can say he's got 4 of them already. Too bad though he's not meant to be mine; or at least that was what I chose not to. Made a trip back to my ex-company on friday and was shown around the new office building -> it was lovely with the mkt. dept. now at the attic and overall place was cosy looking. But then my close colleages which I'm used to havin around cause they are so much fun are planning to quit next year round march or april. It is sad to think that if I do go back and work for good, things wouldn't be quite the same anymore. Although the right thing is not to make decisions based on such things cause people come and go, I still can't help but think twice about going back CTC to work permanently.

Met my much missed and loved cousin on Sat night cause she was returnin to KL early the following day. Did come catching up with her and got some advice about relationships from her as well. We were jokin about us when we were younger funny how she was always jealous of me cause I was the one getting the guys while she didn't. Well it may have been a blessing in disguise cause now she found the supposingly right one in her life while I'm still wandering around aimlessly. Whatever it is, I wish her all the best and we'll still be there for each other no matter how far apart we are or how long we haven't been talking. Got a call from Len as well and sure miss ya heaps too gal... Talked to Tigger for awhile on ICQ and she was complanin how we all trick her into graduatin at Clayton and in the end no one keep her company. Feel really bad, but guess she'll understand. My life is so messed up now that I really hope things would come to a conclusion in time...

( The first sight of him irks you and you feel a sense of dislike for him cause he looked like the usual snobbish, full-0f-himself, typical s'pore guy. Then as he became friends with you, with the cute, silly, funny and adorable things he did, the dislike gradually changed to like. Doesn't all things start this way? Sometimes it continues, sometimes it doesn't... HE:
- cheers you up with his silly and funny acts when you're down
- is so soft-hearted he always gives in to everyone esp. his friends
- is a pizza, quarter chilli pounder, bak kut teh and practically all kinds of food lover
- never turns down any request when there's a need of favour to use his car
- is sweet and caring to his friends
you have never ending good things to say about him in the 5 months thats you know him, but what's the point when he doesn't belong to you?

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

sOmE LaSt sHoPpiN, gOodByE tO giPpsLaNd, bAcK jB/sG, tHe eNd tO sOmEtiN?

Went to do some last minute shopping for souvenirs in Vic Mart and also to see some of the places round Melbourne which I won't be seeing for quite a long time last friday. Met up with Len and Tim at Glen Waverly on sat to have lunch before dropping off Longy's car at his Uncle Cheng San's place. Was so frustrated at the baggage weight problem at the airport that I forgot to give my friend a call. Had to call my uncle to come pick up one extra luggage which couldn't go through because of the excess weight and lucky SQ had extra baggage weight for students, thus no guesses as to who had to help me with my extra lugagges. The last shot before everyone went their seperate ways that day:

Was happy to see my parents and sis-in-law at the airport to receive me but hate to admit it, I was upset during the flight back cause I was missin gippsland and all the happy memories there already. Tried to sleep in the plane but just couldn't and thus watched movies of one which was a love story title" The Notebook". Somehow it caused some emotional stir within me and tears just flow down my cheek naturally... There was someone else who came to receive me at the airport and I was in a state of shock that I didn't know how to response when I saw him.

Met up with a long time sec sch friend who's the same age as me two days after my return and was glad to see she was happily married to her BF of 9yrs with a 9mth old daughter. Somehow I always seem to bring happiness to some of my good friends round me (I was the one who introduced them at first) but never able to find my own true happiness because fate always seems to play tricks on me and my heart... Anyway finally revealed my thoughts to someone and he decided to give up on our relationship. Then again, there are always things in life where the unexpected happen because people have to make choices as fate and time are always not on our side, or mine maybe... Im always caught in a situation where I have to choose a path which decides my fate in the future and it always isn't easy... Guess this "depression" period could be the natural "slimming" program...

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

AfTeR ExAms StOrY (PaRt 2) - A hApPeNin NiTe SeNdiN MiKo oFF / PrE-XmAs DiNner + GiFt eXcHaNge

It's recommended that you start readin from the bottom post but there's no continuation anyway. So after Amber clubbin on Fri night, we stayed over at Mulgrave Motor Inn and requested for late check-out again as usual cause none of us could get up early except Tigger. Spent our day walking around Melbourne City and havin coffee at Starbucks as Longy sent his car for servicing. Got myself a Playboy wallet even though I was dead-broke. What to do? Couldn't resist the temptation when I really liked something so much plus I haven't bought anything dear for ages already. Keke, won some $ with my last $5 at Roulette in Crown at night, but it was gone like water in just a few days. Sometimes you just don't know where the $ goes to. Headed of to the Airport after much squabbling of everyone on whether we should stay on another night in the city cause Longy's car still wasn't ready. So we "bunk" at the airport sofa's; Tigger and Miko watchin Taiwanese Variety shows, Longy fallin asleep on the floor, Me on the chair and Len and Timmy lazin around from 1am plus till 5am. Just one last shot before Miko flies to Sydney:

Anyway we had a pre-xmas dinner cum gift exchange on Sun which was more of like a last time gathering before everyone leaves this semester:

Yum yum.. delicious food...

Presents for everyone...

Hmmn, everybody busy openin their present..

As usual Longy foolin around again; this time with Len's Xmas Stockin.. Keke, we made Tim and him perform the "Part the porpus" skit they did for the Churchill Idol Auditions as well...

Yeah, the group shot... Everyone + Samantha's bro and cousin as well..

Friday, November 05, 2004

AfTeR ExAms StOrY (PaRt 1) - LaSt ToUriSm PaPeR / LaPtOp CrAsH / JuSt bEiNg vAiN / AmBeR CluBbiN

Haven't got the time to update my blog till now and thus the date's just for fun, though it states last fri which isn't exactly is. Anyway the last exam paper - Tourism wasn't too bad and all I knew was that I kept writing and writing. Jumped with joy right after that and went to Traralgon with Tigger after that to release ourselves from the exam blues... Bought some fake nails just for fun and vanity haha..

My stupid laptop crashed last weekend when I tried installin winXP service pack 2, still abit dodgy though now but guess I have to wait till I get back JB to have it serviced. I remembered I got loads of stuff to blog about last week, think I forgotten most of it already.. Silly me, I always daydream about what to write and full of thoughts elsewhere, but when Im really here, I just can't remember. So we went to Amber clubbin on Fri and it was my last time going there, so got some shots for remembrance. Happy that all my close pals were there:

Longy sure looks like an "Uncle" here with his long "ah-beng" hair...

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